April 25, 2020
“Wake Up…. Wake Up… Wake UP! Wake Up! WAKE UP!!!“
I was sitting on the dining table with my wife enjoying dinner.
From a lull state of mind, I slowly feel the command of the inner voice as it sharpens my mind allowing it to silently call me out. My eyes widen and my gaze focused. Like an Owl, with heightened sense of awareness – perhaps even a sense of caution, and a sense of belief arose within me. In this inner silence, I found myself calling (seeking) out to the source of this voice to hear it manifest again and again. Somewhat mixed in interpreting it as a voice that I willed that birth the energy to seek further. Where was the source? Why did it arise again? Why am I responding to it? Am I taking over the voice and tricking myself into willing it?
None of that should matter because the seed of questioning is the inverse of knowing, and of questioning is to alleviate a concealed doubt, and needing an “answer” that emotionally addresses or cloaks the doubt from perception, and that an answer may sometimes be too limiting and lack the foundation of truth due to ignorance.
To answer the 1 definitive question is good.
But to attempt to answer multiple questions definitively will lead one to half-hearted resolutions that do not truly advance inquiry – especially since the leading definitive question had not been properly crystallized.
… And then I feel a calling to start this Journal to share what goes on, and perhaps in time it will reveal in how the future plays out.